From evenings spent comparing examples of how important and high pressured our jobs are, to group bragging about the wonderful presents our partners got us for Christmas, somehow my group of friends have lost our way.
When I’m with them, everything feels like a competition. Toxic and tedious; every dinner, drinks and weekend away with them leaves me feeling exhausted from trying to keep up with the competitiveness that seems to have established itself as part of our friendship.
Worried it was about to tear my friendship group apart, I set out to find a way to deal with my competitive friendship:
- KNOW the difference between positive and negative forms of envy – wanting something you can’t have versus wanting something you can. ‘Envy can motivate and empower you to achieve,’ says Professor Tracey Vaillancourt, who has researched competition in women, ‘but it can also be a negative waste of energy.’
- WORK on your own self-esteem. ‘People with high but fragile self-esteem are likely to be more vulnerable, but somebody who readily accepts that they are good at some things and not so good at others will be less susceptible to making social comparisons,’ says Vaillancourt.
- CONFIDE in a friend who you think might feel the same or might understand your feelings without judging. If you decide to take action, clinical psychologist Melanie Greenberg advises: ‘speak your truth without blaming anyone. Explain why you want things to change, what outcome you would like – for example, to be happy for each other as a group, stay positive. And take your ally with you.’
- TURN negative to positive and be the one to choose love not war first. When it comes to friendships, Greenberg reminds us: ‘We want acknowledgment, we want respect. We want to be seen, heard, validated and be an accepted member of the group.’ Instead of letting yourself get sucked into a new competition, support your friend and give her the acknowledgement she is seeking from you. It will be easier for her to open up and give the same to you in return.
- ASK yourself what the motivation is behind the competitiveness. If your friend simply needs you to be her audience and has no interest in your achievements, take a step back and give the friendship some room to settle.
- READ The Group by Mary McCarthy (Virago, £8.99). Set around a group of university friends in the 1930s, it's the perfect example of competitive friendship and a reminder that rivalry is normal and experienced across many generations.
- REMIND yourself of the ridiculousness of your emotions by listening to Morrissey’s classic song ‘We hate it when our friends become successful’ or reading Shakespeare – ‘How bitter it is to look at happiness through another man’s eyes’…